APK ANDROID

This is the schedule I came up with. I decided that it is a base kind of everyday schedule because I am not home every day and sometimes we have company and what not. For instance twice a month I go grocery shopping and spend a lot of time doing food prep. Sometimes I go to the library or go out to do errands with friends. On those days things will have to be different, but the most part this is what I am trying to get settled into routine. 

Yesterday sucked! I have been having a lot of trouble with showers since we moved into this apartment. I panic while taking them and sometimes that panic spills over afterward into my after shower routine. I hate it. Amanda hasnt liked showering in this apartment either. Our concussion after trying different things to make it better, is that the damned shower is just too small. Our bathroom kind of stupidly set up anyway. Amanda thinks its my claustrophobia kicking off. So, yesterdays shower was awful, not the least bit relaxing, and by the time I sat down to dry off, put on my lotion, moisturizer, toner, ect... I couldnt do the after shower routine, all I could do was ride out the panic attack- which was gods awful! I hardly cry so hard Im screaming, but that sort of episode hits, its doesnt hold back and everything floods me. I hate that too.

Amanda wanted to go swimming yesterday in the apartment pool, but as usual the damned thing was closed. It seems every time she goes, the pool is closed or it is so disgusting none of us want to get in it. We are paying for the damned thing, why cant they keep it clean for us. Worse, Ive noticed that the swim class they had is no longer listed for our community events. We have sit and fit and walk with your neighbors, neither of which is every day. I also havent seen anyone head to the pool for awhile. This sicks because Im finally feeling up to swimming again. I mean I can go without worrying Ill overflow a tampon, I no longer have the organs to do that. Floating in cool water, slipping under the surface to be encompassed all around, and gliding through water was one of my favorite things to do. I even used to swim competitively. I miss it so much. But, we pay for a pool we cant use.

We went to Rachels last night for dinner and to hang out. Rachel has been working on her back yard and its really coming along beautifully. Shes put up some decorations, doing some brick and stone work, planted some flowers and catnip and has plans for vegetables too. Shes even going to build a fire pit. Since it was a nice evening, I sat outside and talked with her while she was working. The wind felt so nice in the shade and I could have taken a nap. 

When we went inside, I cut her hair. She really liked it. Then she trimmed my hair and Amanda wanted to play too. I cut her hair and screwed up. I cut too much off for her liking. She always says she doesnt care about her hair and threatens to shave it off. Well, in my hope and effort to get a lot of the dead ends off and to help it look healthier, I took off several inches and cut it straight across and did light layering to frame her face. But Amanda doesnt like straight across hair cut and I didnt know that. She also didnt like the length. The frizz of her hair makes it a little difficult to pull back out of her face but I told her I will get up every morning to do her hair so it looks nice while its growing out. It is my penance. Also, I promised to micro trim her hair to help it to grow faster. 

But the evening doesnt end there. We came home last night our house smells funny. We think it is the trash and how stuffy it gets in here when the air conditioner isnt going. Amanda took a shower and ended up getting sick while doing so. I could barely help her, I dont have a strong stomach when it comes to that. She got things cleaned up and finished her shower. I had a big, fluffy towel waiting for her, and I doctored an ouchie on her finger. 

We didnt get to sleep until well after 3 am and had to be up today by 6:30. 

Today will be better. Im going to make it so.